I got a new nickname this past year. I had to wear a walking boot for a long while after a reconstructive foot surgery, and I became known as Legatron.
The boot and nickname were cool (for about 2 days) but the surgery really wasn't. It hurt far worse than I imagined. It took way longer to heal than I dreamed (still healing 5 months later). It was way more difficult to be incapacitated than I could have known it would be.
I had to go in every week and get my oh so tender foot tightly taped up with athletic tape. Did I mention it was tight? The doc essentially made a binder around my foot so that it would heal up correctly, but it made it hurt anew each Tuesday. Needless to say, I dreaded Tuesdays. But I got through it, and over time, the pain became more bearable and less on the forefront of every thought. I had to bear in mind at all times, that in the pain, healing was happening. In the pain, my bones were reshaping and re-molding, so they could be strong again.
So in light of the pain, and in light of knowing what I know now, would I do it again?
It's a good question and I have actually pondered it a lot, especially knowing I need to same procedure on the other foot!
But, yes, my answer is yes. Despite the pain of it all, I know having a healed, functioning-like-it-should foot will be worth it.
Life is like that, don't you think?
Brokenness (of foot, of spirit, of relationship, of will...you name it) hurts. When brokenness enters the picture, it takes longer to heal than we imagine. It hurts beyond our presuppositions. It is excruciatingly difficult to be incapacitated. The process simply takes it out of us.
But at the end of it, it is worth it. On the other side of brokenness can be healing and wholeness. On the other side of it, there can be a new way. On the other side of it, we can flourish and function like we didn't before. But the only way to the other side, is through the pain, ruthlessly trusting the Healer to do what it takes to get us there.
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.
~ Psalm 147:3